Picture This #7

London town: taken by Barry

Cheer me up H&M

Matey heaven in a bath

Barry the biggest kid in the house :)

Spending time with Corben, my happy thought 

It's been a rough couple of weeks, to be honest I have been posting about more events, press days and things because I have not wanted to talk about my life much lately. I'm missing the sun, which is very unlike me I'm a winter baby but been feeling crappy about going out. I think what with now being 7 months pregnant and having very little to wear (that fits), is not helping too ...When it's sunny I could just throw on a dress.

On a dark and gloomy day a couple of weeks ago, I ordered two things from H&M this lush stripped jumper and some leather look leggings. Was gutted that the leggings would not do up over bump, the jumper is super cute but I just fill like a mess in everything I wear at the moment. So my 'cheer up' fix, was a burst.

I'm finding even little things difficult at the moment, like having a bath (even with some Lush bits and Matey AKA best reason to have a child!) I'm just drained all the time now. The other day I had a bleed too which at the time I was very casual about, Barry took me to the hospital we waited forever (whoop whoop for cuts to the NHS) but the doctor's were great. I had to have tests etc and at the time I was very calm, but when they let me go home I think reality hit. Poor Basil our kitten wanted to play and instead I shouted at him, and burst out into tears ....This was in front of Corben (my 2yr old) who hugged me saying 'no cry mummy' .................... Which later made me cry in the kitchen for about an hour as I felt like the worst mum ever. 

Me and bump (Logan) are fine and now my poor Corbie is ill, it's been a crappy. Yes this is a very self pity post, yes I'm moaning. It's nice to get it out and so I can get back to being happy, I have just over a month before baby is here. Barry (my bloke) has been amazing, looking after me and Corbie, and I will be in my leggings in no time. Plus it may be cold and grim in London, but soon it will be Christmas and the tree will be up and I'll take Corben to see Santa. Plus it's been nice to go to these events, they have been an escape but than when I really look at what I have I don't need to escape I'll just enjoy.

Anyway sorry for this post, just needed to let you know were my minds at you know me. I need to get it out so I can move on, blogging is my therapy I think. So if your having a down time, keep strong.

P.S thank you so much for all your twitter messages, I bloody love you lot xx