My hair had a good day today, but lately it's looked more like a crumpled piece of paper that you just can't flatten out. The ends were really damaged so I trimmed it, and you may say 'but where? It's still long' but when you have had hair down your back for years, even a little going is a big deal. Sad but true. So apart from having to flat iron my hair for it to look half acceptable, and not like I'm auditioning to be a member of fraggle rock I'm a little down. (Also have a personal thing, I won't go into on here as it's not my place)
Now I know it sounds stupid, because it's not anyone else's fault but my own. I've put 5lb in less than a month yeah thanks Christmas and all your calorie filled goodness, not a big deal right. Right, it's not so before any ones like shut up moaning this is whats getting me down. Wake up and pick out something to wear, oh my fave jeans ...Don't fit, oh maybe my new skirt ....Won't fit. Okay try another pair of stretch jeans Law, queue me sucking in my stomach as much as humanly possible. I literally have nothing to wear, I'm not going to buy a whole new wardrobe! So it's time for cutting out the crap, and doing some crazy workout off You Tube in hope that some how I can wear something else other than sweat pants! Yep, I'm Regina George, sweat pants are the only thing that fit me.
Jacket: River Island*
Necklace: Baz (birthday gift)
I have new found respect for people who transform their bodies, it's so hard to not just give up and be like 'please that bloody cake!'. I turn the big 3,0 on Saturday, and I feel I've let myself down. I said that by thirty, I would be in the best shape of my life by this I mean mental and body wise. So I'm trying to focus on the good in my life, Baz and my boys and my family, friends. I thought about taking a break from blogging, but than I think blogging pushes me it gives me focus to get things done. Maybe it's the new year, I don't know I'm just in a silly self pity hole. We all fall in them sometimes, I think next week, I'll start a new and stop worrying so much.